First Blog; Daddy I Miss You .
Tuesday, September 16, 2008 @ 6:40 PM
Yes; I was once that happy young lady. But now that I have lost the one and only MAN that meant everything to me in this world; I have became a different person. I mean I'm not sad/depressed or watevah you wanna kall it..on a daily basis; but I definitely have my moody/bad days alot. But I'm thankful to have people here for me that I know truly cares and want nothing but thee BEST for me.


June 9, 2008: A Day I Will Never Forget .

thee day i found out my daddy; my bestfrien; my partna has left me to walk without him. wen my mommy told me the news over the phone. i broke down something terrible. it felt like someone ripped my heart out my chest literally. i never knew i would lose my daddy and especially sooo soon. i thank God that i got to spend my last birthday with him but it really do hurt moving along without my daddy that has been here sinse my birth. im not gon' lie; im mad at God for taking him from us but i have to always remind myself that my daddy belonged to GOD and He jus placed him here for us until it wus his time to go. June 9 will forever haunt me; my summer days will never be thee same; my view on life has definitely changed.>>Anyone soo close to you can be gone in a heartbeat; cherish/take advantage of every moment you have with them.


My Bestfrien. Hard On Me Sinse Day One.

Help'd Me Become Whut I am Today.

Yeeeea; my daddy wus; scratch that...still is my bestfrien till this day. Its funny because I remember wen I couldn't stand my daddy and I always felt under attack by him. We used to stay bumping heads. Little did I know that all that extra attitude he gave me or non-stop yelling about thee same topics wus to better me in the future. Daddy and I got to the point where all the yelling ceased and he became 'my better half'. I hope by now ya'll kan tell that my daddy meant alot to me, if not...OH WELL; cause I know how I felt about him. He taught me thee in's and out's of it all; taught me how to ball; box; to improve my drawing; and wherevah you saw him..I was right there. I went everywhere with him especially when he started to get sick again; this wusn't his first time being sick..it jus hurt wen you know the same thing has came back once again to take control of your daddy's body. Sinse my sister and I's birth our daddy wus sick; he had a liver transplant wen we were little; got passed that and we never thought we would had to go thru that again. But this time around along with him needing another liver transplant; he needed a kidney transplant. That hit HOME wen I found that out. I cried countless times; crying became my only way to fall asleep at night. I hated seeing my daddy and couldn't even recognize him because of how sick he was; it hurt and people could never know how much it hurt me..Ashley. They didn't share the bond that we shared. I will never forget thee many car sing-a-longs we had; thee many late night laughs bout everything; thee many talks about my new crushes...I talked to him about anything and I wus glad that I could find that in my FATHER.


Its Hard Going On Without Him.

But Thee Memories Will Never Leave Me.

I still cry alot. I rather be with him then still here suffering without him. Its sad that I rather leave everyone for jus my daddy; but I rather be with only HIM. He left me here to try to stay sane in a house full of women; which constantly irritate me day in and day out. He Wus My Escape; My Get Away Plan; Realest Bestfrien. My daddy was a SOLDIER; he went 5 months in the hospital until he have beared all the pain he could; and God wouldn't put anyone through that so he took him. My daddy wus a blessing to alot of people; and losing him wus a pain to alot of people. Daddy we miss you, you left your three ladies here bickering with each other; we're going crazy without you partna. Mommy always get me to imitate the dances you always did in the exact place you did them lol; good times; the many times you and mommy wus supposed to have dance challenges and kept fakinggg. I miss it all; I miss everything about you; I wish you wus still here and didn't have to leave us so soon. It hurts to know I won't have you here physically here with me no more. I've shared so many tears for you and don't think they will ever end. I..Ashley had to bury my daddy at the age of fifteen. painful..honored that God blessed Calvin L. Pierce to be my daddy. I feel too special; he wus thee definition of my perfect daddy.



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